How can I put my withdrawal
syndrome in just one simple phrase? Ugh, damn it’s hard to even converge or
simply said as; to form in any word.
It’s hard to stop texting you morning and night greetings;
it’s not compulsory as you said before many times, so I understand why
you didn't even bother to text me *ahaa* And I keep telling myself to not
texting you as you need some space.
It’s hard to start my day without texting you like mad of how was the
traffic were that morning, what had happened last night, my dreams and
nightmare, my tantrum and anxiety;
I've learnt how to hold myself without someone listening, more time
for myself though because minus the waiting time for my text to be replied *smirk*
It’s hard to keep forming words in the back of my head like I usually
do then scrub it as fast as I can;
Because it’s damn hard to keep it to myself, referring to my phrase
and ugly sketch *sigh*
That’s why I put it here as I
want to be a lady who is calm as a water lilies *puke* I am also hoping
to quit spamming you and act more.. matured? I don’t know how to act like one,
seriously.
My mind keep ‘reaching’ for you,
whether you are okay or not and also wanting you back to usual as I really do
want Mr Mohd Safariq Mohamad goofiness and laughter’s; I’ll bet you’ll be
feeling awkward someone writing something like this about you, but yeah, I want
my teddy back! T_T
The most important I want you to know are;
I am afraid I am the one who makes you feeling unhappy.
I am afraid I am the one who makes you feeling irritated.
And I am afraid I am not the one who makes you smile again *sad*
I can also imagine how weird this whole kind of twisted emotion which
I've turn into words when it is really nothing serious with you than just
simply situation; ‘you only need some space’ *Wuaaaa*
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A simple saying keeps me through this
whole week;
‘Kalau dah jodoh, tak contact pun
tak risau, tak jumpa pun no problem. Jika kita yakin dengan
ketentuanNya, semua takkan jadi masalah’
InshaaAllah, Aminn.
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